nobody can give me the advice i need to hear and in reality I know the answer, I just don't nesecarily know how to accept the answer people cause I'm so comfortable in this position that I've been in for years that I'm scared to step out on a limb and just not give a fuck that I'm going to put myself through all kinds of hell just to be comfortable but all this caring and stressing over stuff has never been comfortable so I'm basically holding on to the shit that I've wanted to get rid of for so long.
I overdosed on love and affection a long time ago.
Meaning, I care about people easily and people easily "steal my heart". That phrase is so cliche.
But the point and fact of the matter is:
I need to fuckin' CHILL
I look at things like ...
If I worry about it then I'll be better prepared when it happens but in reality, worrying about things never solved anything because when you're trying to avoid shit, the end result is far worse than you expected and hurts worse because you THOUGHT you knew but you really knew NOTHING!
But aye, the point is :
I need to chill. I'm 15 worrying about stuff that will have no lasting effect on my life.
I need to "Let go and let God" ...
that's jut a bad phrase to say since the stuff I'm worrying about wouldn't be an issue if my ass was as holy as I seemed to be, but that's a blog for another day and time.
I gotta chill, mane !
* did i really just say ''mane". Too much negro music in my life! lol
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